on a road for a better tomorow

mr. time torment

 why must you torment mr. time? all i have done is prayed for your help since aug 07! but yet you continue to torment me with the slow grain of snad slipping into the other side oth the glass. and then you throw obstacles in the way that can slow the pace of the dripping sand. at night you make the thoughts of day haunt my brain so i hear every click of the hand of the clock. during they day you hold the sun from letting the moon come out. the moon, add music, and you got a sooth relief from my torment created by time and mind together.

oh well mr. time, at least your giving me a christmas present

Life can sometimes be like the lottery

 you know when you keep putting money into the lotto but get nothing back? life can be like that, where you put yourself into certain goals or tasks, and then you get nothing for it. at some points you feel like quitting, like maybe the lotto isn’t as hyped up as it is made to be. maybe i can be content without having the prize….. but then catch yourself buying another ticket.. 

Is it Time?

to be continued…

friend? or foe

a recent play of events has now got me wondering is this person really a friend or a foe. it is hard for it seems like there is no way someone to betray you like that, but then… i have always said, “people in the end make decisions for their own happiness” and so i guess it is always possible to be a foe…

on the road for better tomorow

no matter how many times i try to comfort myself , it seems like i’m not getting better, and i can’t sleep because my thoughts, and i wake up crying because of my dream… it sucks when you have the sweetest dream, and you wake up to this horrible hell. i guess she is moving on, and i’m having a little more trouble, but i want to be friends…but is my wanting to be with her messing that up? how do you tell someone you love that you miss them without being able to tell them for it is no longer your place to tell them that. how do you stand by and watch yourself get pushed away from someone you want to hold? ….. how do you deal with longing to hear the voice of the one you love and then hurt when you notice how much you really don’t mean when your talking…… i guess this just takes longer than i wish it would, because the truth is i love you, and i miss you, and i can’t wait to be your friend, and i can’t wait to a point in life where the future is no longer in my head. but for now, the future doesn’t matter, and as of right now, we can just let life play it’s course….. i can only go up, and i wish only the best for you, and i admire how strong you are…